Rainbow

I thought I have forgiven long ago
But now I know I didn’t fully let go
I don’t want to be where he’ll be
Even if it is heaven I’ll miss
I don’t want to be where hypocrites are
Who have acted like spiritual stars

That’s quite a silly thought
But it shows the pains I’ve got
Time never really erase pains
Yet holding on can be insane
Busyness is but just a mask
Running away will never last

In quietness looking into my own heart
Be true to myself and let down my guard
Allowing the tranquility of God’s peace in
Calming my soul and pains within
Sharing with one who will understand
Standing by me and holding my hand

- Bee

My Dear Friend,

Christmas is as pure as dove;
Christmas is a time to truly love.
Do not keep it to yourself;
Do share it with someone else.
Then you’ll find meaning as you give;
Then you’ll find meaning in the life you live.
This poem I wrote for you to keep;
As my humble Christmas gift.

Your Friend,

Bee

i don’t know why the sudden tears
how I wish that you are here
staying close by, staying near
bringing comfort that’s for sure
- Bee

Does it matter to you if I say
I lost my confidant?
Does it matter to you if I say
I lost my confidence?
Does it matter to you if I say
I lost my friend?
Does it matter to you if I say
I am lost in the end?

Meaningless, all are meaningless,
all are chasing after the wind.
Meaningless, all are meaningless,
all go back to the beginning.
Meaningless, all are meaningless,
all labors have gone into the drain.
Meaningless, all are meaningless,
all I must do is stay strong in the rain.

- Bee

Who will be there for me
when I need words of comfort?
Who will be there
for me
when I need a shoulder to cry?
Who will be there for me
when I
need to pour my sorrows?

Who will be there for me
if I were to lose my
vision?
Who will be there for me
if I were to lose my voice?
Who will
be there for me
if I were to die tonight?

- Bee

Dear Lord,
Without You I can do nothing.
Without You life is just a dream.
Without You I will stumble and fall.
Without You I may lose my all.

Thank You for keeping me safe.
Thank You for guiding my way.
Thank You for supplying all my needs.
Thank You for the place in eternity.

- Bee

Dear Lord,
I just don’t understand…
How can a man claims that he loves You and others,
Yet his actions prove otherwise?
How can a man feels sorry for hurting others,
Yet his actions are causing more hurts and sighs?
How can a man seeks heavenly things,
And ignores the one You loved inside?
How can a man says this life is a mist,
Yet spending so much time on things that will die?

Please help me understand what seems confusing,
And help me cry and don’t keep my hurts within.
Please help me not live like a robot
That just exists without any feeling.
Please break my silence and let me cry out
And give all my hurts and sorrows to You, my King.
Please wipe away all my tears now
And comfort my feeble being.

- Bee

You have come and make your footprints in my heart
They will be there to stay and never depart.
I shall leave my footprints at this blog tonight
It shall be there whether I live or die.

- Bee

Dear Lord,
Thank You for calming the ’stormy sea’ in my life.
Thank You for the many blessings in disguise.
Thank You for Your love that never die.
Thank You for always hearing my heart’s cry.
Amen.

- Bee