Rainbow

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth… So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them… God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day."
- Genesis 1: 1. 27, 31

only the works that are in God’s hands
will turn out "very good" in His plan
as we seek to love Him more each day
he will unfold His plan along the way

we need not worry about tomorrow
we just need to go to Him and be bold
we may not see what our future holds
but we believe in what we are told

this is the new beginning of our life
full of surprises and exciting sides
awaiting for us to explore and to find
so that "hello" will not end with "goodbye"

- bee

The things that I have gone through the past few months have brought me away from God for awhile. Looking back, I know that when I don’t walk in God’s way, I am only asking for trouble.

Now that I have decided to move on, suddenly I could feel God’s presence again. The recent 3 sessions of revival meetings at my church came in just at the right time… at a time when my heart is ready to receive the word of God again.  Also the coming charity mission trip will be good for God to once again fill me with His presence, love and compassion… a time to re-examine my purpose in life.

So just like the following song says,

Verse:
I don’t want to worship from afar
Drawing closer to you
Is my only desire
You’re the one that i’ve been longing for
Let me dwell in your presence
To worship and adore
I fall on my knees
Lord i’m yearning for you alone
Deep calls to deep
Lord i know there must be more

Chorus:
Show me your face oh lord
Make my heart pure as gold
Standing in awe of you
Your love it surrounds me forever
Show me your face oh lord
I want to know you more
I want to stand right here with you
All of my days..

I want to thank you Lord…

for all the good things and all the bad things,

for all the friends you brought them in,

for lifting me up from my shadows and valleys,

for helping me move on so swiftly.

I want to thank you Lord…

for your love so great,

for with you I shall never be afraid,

for your thoughts are higher than mine always,

for your ways are higher than mine ways.

- your child, Bee

Life has to go on even with all the ups and downs… but it’s easy said than done… at least for me. Yet I find the secret lies in remembering what’s my purpose on earth, in remembering who will go through this life with me.

And yes, I remember a very old gospel song that has been a comfort to my soul whenever I felt lonely and sad. It goes something like this (from my memory)…

MOVING ON

I’ve been to lots of places
And I’ve seen a lot of faces
There were times I felt I’m all so alone
But in those lonely moments
Those precious lonely moments
Jesus let me know I am not alone

Moving on, moving on
I’ve learnt to trust in Jesus
I’ve learnt to trust in God
Moving on, moving on
I’ve learnt to depend upon His words

So I thank God for the mountains
And I thank Him for the valleys
And I thank Him for the storms He brought me through
‘Cos if I never had a problem
I’ll never know that He could solve them
I’ll never know what faith in His words can do

Moving on, moving on
I’ve learnt to trust in Jesus
I’ve learnt to trust in God
Moving on, moving on
I’ve learnt to depend upon His words

Goodbye My Friend

You wrote to me and I wrote to you;
We encouraged one another through writing.
But suddenly you wrote no more,
And I have not heard from you for a year or so.

Surprisingly I received an email from ‘you’ last Friday.
I was so happy and quickly opened to read it.
But I was shocked and speechless…
I did not know what to say or how to feel.

My feeling froze for a moment then tears began to flow.
That email was not from you but from your brother.
Your brother said that you were gone without a word;
That you had been suffering much pains from your sickness until February.

Then your pains were relieved when you breathed your last.
Your brother asked me not to reply that email
Because your address will be removed.
Your new address is now ‘Heaven’ where there’s no sorrow and no pain.

Why didn’t you tell me when you were sick and in pain?
Why must I know it from your brother instead of you?
Should I grieve or should I rejoice? I really don’t know.
I have very mixed feelings…

I can’t help crying yet I rejoice that you are at a better place than I am now.
Goodbye my friend for now, I will miss you…
But I know I shall see you again one day,
For our permanent ‘address’ is the same.

- Bee, 24 Mar 04

My reflection

I wrote this poem when my friend passed away suddenly early last year. It’s been 1.5 year now, yet reading it can bring sorrow in my heart.

Yes, that’s the pain of parting, one of the pains in my life… but thank God that this earth is not my permanent home. I wish to go to my permanent home soon…

If Tomorrow Never Come

If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss,
And call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I could hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would videotape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute or two,
I would not hesitate to say, "I love you."
Instead of assuming you would know I do.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike.
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow,
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
You’ll surely regret the day,

That you didn’t take that extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss.
And you were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be her one last wish.

So hold your love one close today,
Whisper in her ear,
Tell her how much you love her,
And that you’ll always hold her dear.

Take time to say, "I’m sorry",
"Please forgive me",
"Thank you" or
"It’s okay".

And if tomorrow never come,
You’ll have no regrets about today.
These thoughts went through my mind,
We’ll never know what will happen the next day.

- Bee, modified 28 Jan 04

My Reflection

Sometimes we tend to be harsh to those who are closest to us and are more friendly to mere friends instead…. for we know that friends will not allow themselves to be treated harshly, whereas those closest to us are more forgiving and willing to take all the harshness due to love.

So many times we tend to take our loved ones for granted till we lose them…

If we know that tomorrow never come, what would we have said or done differently?

If tomorrow never come, would we have any regrets?

This is not my actual blog as I already have so many other blogs elsewhere. I might write a little here sometimes though. If you are keen to read my other blogs just send me a message and I’ll let you know.

Blogging has become part of my life…whether you call it an addiction or not. It’s through blogging since 2003 that I have learnt so many things - the internet, the softwares, the design, people, friends, my hidden gifts, myself… and that’s where I started my journey to writing poem.

I have selected "Rainbow" ‘cos I have experienced both the rains and sunshines in my life, and have seen Rainbows appearing. Well the cycle continues… as long as there is rain and sunshine, there will always be RAINBOW. And as long as there is rainblow, there is FOREVER LOVE for you.

So take heart… something I have to constantly remind myself too.